A Day In March

So many I need to say
before I go on my way
too much emotion, effort and time
most of all, putting my sanity on the line.

Words left unsaid,
matters left undone,
just leave things hanging,
than to be forever waiting.

Shouldn’t have trusted,
shouldn’t have believed
no one else to blame but myself
getting involved in this whole charade.

Too scared?
or totally unprepared?
whatever it is...
the truth, I only seek.

But truth proved too elusive,
too out of grasp,
shielded so much by facade,
buried underneath all that crap.

Day by day, I grow number
amazed how I even bother
urging myself to stay
until it becomes difficult to get away

Couldn’t shed a tear,
yet, couldn’t stop to care
staring at a blank wall,
no one there to catch my fall.

Trust you, I did
was met however by a cold wind
left behind to pick up the pieces
remnants of broken promises.

I need to rise above
before I cannot anymore love
or care or even feel
for I sure deserve something real.

Move on I must do
face the music without you
hard as it may, but I need
turn the other way and leave.

Through all things here and gone,
after all that’s been said and done,
still one thing left to say,
Goodbye and maybe we’ll see again someday.