Questions

I wonder if it’s worth the wait

I wonder if it’s worth the try

sitting here beside a lake

asking myself why?

Why am I in this mess?

why am I hoping rain would fall?

adding up to my distress

acting like a big fool

Fool enough to believe in tomorrow

fool to believe promises are true

that the future is as enchanting as the rainbow

and free of sorrow too

But life does not work that way

it is not what it seems

lived from day to day

I can only dream

I dream of a love that’s everlasting

I dream of a love that is real

a love that is unending

basking in happiness, it’s making me feel

I feel care that is so sweet

I feel love full of enchantment

don’t know where this will lead

enveloped all over with magic.

Disbelief

I can’t believe...

I feel this way

for someone who is far away

why can’t I fall for someone near

so everything will be so clear

I can’t believe...

I think this way

that you would come back and stay

promises you’ve been saying

yet leaving me still hanging

I can’t believe...

I’m all alone

when some have come along

maybe because I am waiting for you

hoping dreams would come true

I can’t believe...

I’ve waited this long

to realize what I am doing is wrong

clinging on to this absurd dream

when you don’t do what you mean

Yet...

I can’t believe

I’m doing this

jumping into a big risk

telling you of what I feel

wishing you’ll realize that its all for real.

Why is this happening?

when I feel like something is ending,

start its hasn’t even been,

yet, feels like was blown by the wind.

So confused it’s making me feel,

of things that are not even real,

why then do I feel so far,

when in reality you are so near.

It’s making me think all over again,

if this is worth my thought and will,

when all it does is make me confused,

of the emotions I feel.

Sometimes, I feel I have to move on,

drop everything behind

however, in time I will be going back again,

supply answers to questions left hanging.

Wishing...

I wish it is easy to say goodbye

I wish it is better to cry

I wish things were not opened up

I wish visions of you have never come up

I wish it is easy to forget

I wish this is all but a dream

I wish I will wake up one day

I wish things were the way they were.

Deep into the night

Deep into the night

I look for a refreshing sight

gazing at the dark sky

wishing to find answers in the stars.

Deep into the night

came a gush of cold wind

I hugged myself in a wrap

as tears slowly dropped.

Deep into the night

a sudden downpour came

barefoot, I walked outside

rain came pouring down.

Deep into the night

the rain stopped

I walked and walked

a tree I came across

Deep into the night

the wind simmered down

weariness came over me

I sat under the tree

Deep into the night

the sky opened up

stars came out again

I stayed there and slept.

Tears

I wanted to fall down your face

washing away the pain

but you held me in place

you held on to stay sane

That wouldn't have been my option

would have wanted you to be free

of all the binding emotions

and the future you will be able to see

But you preferred to keep it in

all choked up, unable to breathe

the pain escalating within

kept comfort at arm's length

You can only be strong for so long

putting up a brave front and all

in time you would have to move along

give way and allow the tears to fall

A little honesty is all I ask
but I was deprived of such
to you it may seem like a Herculian task
but to me it would mean much

But honest you have never been
chose to deny anything
an end would have been seen
and not stuck in this feeling

Why hide?
why deny?
keeping me on the side
I always wondered why

Afraid to hurt me?
or I was in no position to know
the truth I now see
I am walking towards tomorrow